SO MUCH TO TELL.............JUST TO LAZY RIGHT NOW....................
I'm so sick off my damn family these fuckers get on my last nerve. I dont even like being in the house when i get off of work. So damn petti and judgemental it gets on my nerve. always in someones bussiness or speading it. i cant fucking wait to move the fuck out.but let me calm down a bit...
well, it's me again. Long time no see. Well I'm offically single(well not according to christina in NJ) I'm trying to find what life is like for me. And I cant do that in relationship. So I had to free myself. I will always love Femmeber and I will always care for her. But I could no longer waste her time as well as hurt her feelings anymore than I already have. But right now I'm taking it one day at a time.
Well it's been a good while since I blogged. I'm at work right now, I work back at ACE as a store manager, I like it. I'm training 2 people. One girl seems to really want 2 learn the other one I don't think she is going 2 work.But I'll see. I'm still with love. She meet my mom this weekend, they are just alike it's crazy. They loved eachothers company so I was glad. I love this girl like crazy. Were going away 2 west virgina to a cabin 4 the weekend. I love to spend time with her. But other than that life is what I make it.
Nothing much.I have 2 more weeks of school..I just want it to be over. But N-e Ways. My love life has takin a turn. Yea the one I love and I are no longer together. I broke it off. Everyone says I'm crazy. Cause she is perfect. But right now I don't want all of this. She feels I want a loud ghetto(like my past loves) and I want drama in my life. Thats not the case at all. I know she loves me till no end and will do whatever it is to make me happy. But I really don't think I can allow her to be in my crazy world. I want to protect her and my way of doing so is leaving her alone. I do love her. But I don't want to hurt her. No I'm not cheating on her. Yea, so females try to temp me but I know all they want is to fuck and that shit is so old these day. I can't just fuck a random female. Yea their body is like whoa.
Yet, most of the time all they have is thier body and no mind. It like fucking the dead. Why would I do that...
Whats good, nothing much.I have about 5 more weeks of school. Then its chill time. I still haven't been to the club in a minute. So Nikki and Me are hittin the clubs this week doing it big. I've just had alot on my plate. Some shit I can't really taste anymore, but there are some things that I am just savoring. But hea I'm Safree......SO my life is bananas....Say this shit is bananas..b-a-n-a-nas!!!!!
wELL ITS me. Its been a while. I'm still in school, It's geeting harder and harder. But thats how it goes. I'm still with love. I'm very very happy. But on the other part I'm kinda sick. I'm showing signs of Lupus. I hope i don't have it but I expect the worst. Yet, what can you say. Life is What you make it.
Well, today is today, I'll take it for what its worth. Today is very hard but I'll get by. I AM no longer with Love. In order for me not to hurt Love, I HAD to leave Love alone. Love doesn't understand how I feel and I can't make Love catch my feelings. But as I told Love. Just because you love and lost doesn't mean you stop loving. I'm sorry you hurt. But I had to keep it real with Love
Life is good right now...I'm just working, hopefully about to start a new job. I have just learned that you can't let your past effect your future. It's so sad when you put all of yourself into one person and you get nothing in return, and I was that person. But I had to grow and in order to do that, I had to leave the bullshit in my life alone.
Everyday is not going to be one of your best days in your life. Yet, you will always have better days then before.
I'm not the regular clone that lies and says they love themselves. I'm learning about myself. What makes me happy, what makes me sad. Everyday I learn something new.
I am a misfit in this world, and I'm proud to say that.I don't wanna be just any ole body or a somebody or a nobodyor anybody.
Just me.
All I got or need in this world is a DREAM.
And the lady who holds me down, Cause love don't hurt like the past.
My Life is so fucked up. I'm can't even subside the pain, cause I feel so NUMB. I don't feel like dealing wit people. It seems as if most the people that I have came in contact wit are so fake or two-faceded or to insurcure to face the reality of what they do to people. Hopefully by January, I'll be back in FLORIDA. Living with my Beat-Bizzle Box Joann. Cause I can't take it up here, people trying to get the best of me up here. The only thing that is holding me back is Love. Love told me how it feels. But Love is not giving me all the emotions. That will help me decide what I gotta do. But, that my story..there's nothing else
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